I deleted hundred words,
Before these came out.
And as I write them,
My hands still tremble.
So what exactly happened?
Sorry, my memories are fading,
But I am trying to tell you,
Because you asked me to.

Something happened, Something terrible,
Something not imagined, Something never destined.
What? Doesn't matter. Why? No one knows.
How? Don't ask me that.

But I will tell you something,
Something more important.

Eyes wide open,
And I don't see anything.
But when they close,
No one should see what I see.
But I will still tell you.
Because you need to.

The nightmares,
You wouldn't want to know.
The blood, the screams,
The cries for help,
The deaths chasing me,
The Love leaving me,
Falling into the abyss,
The darkness killing me.

They say it's all in my mind,
They don't know it's in my heart.
Which is shattering with every passing moment.

But I am trying,
Because you told me to.

The body is shivering,
The mind is numbing,
The heart is breaking,
The soul is dying.

You say, everthing will be okay?
Tell me how?
Trust, faith, hope have failed,
I have tried them
And the end is nearing.

So what now?
Who will heal the healer?

Love? Perhaps, it can.
But that's the thing you don't know
Love itself is broken now.

But yet I am trying.
To forget and forgive,
To live and believe,
To fight and win,
To heal and begin.

And so you all have to try.
Because love wants us to.
Perhaps, it deserves too.